Got a very bad dream this morning.

The dream begins with a call from Dafei saying his car was damaged or something happens with his license. I called Agui and said, well, there’s something wrong with the car of a friend of mine. Gui says, ah, really? Why not you come to my office?

In the next scene of this dream I was driving a red “car” in China. The reason why I quotes car is because it is a so called car. It is in very vivid red, and it is so small that I can lift it by hand. In the dream, this car is given by Wangyi’s mom, and in the reality, she has a yellow beetle. Gui follows me, he is in a yellow car of the same style as mine. Once, one of my friends told me, dream should always be black and white. However, it is true that some of my dreams are with colors. But most of the time, I can only remember red and yellow, some times pink.

We were in a typical Chinese market– noisy, crowded and chaotic. On the way, he asked, whose car is in trouble? I said: Dafei’s. He shook his head. Yeah… Dafei’s car… aren’t the two of them are closed friends?

I followed Gui to his office, and he asked me to wait in the lobby. I just wated, waited and waited. It seems he was so busy that day and forget me waiting outside of his office. Well, this police station is a small place as the police station that we can see in some remote area in China. There’re some people out side the police station chatting and playing Majiang.

Gui is still busy with his own stuff, so I just went out, and an elder lady was talking about the issue that some people want to rent an apartment in this area. It’s a peaceful place, and the traffic is very convenient. Suddenly, I became very nervous and regretful, how should I be in China? What a terrible choice that I has made, I came back just because of some ridiculous reason. Do I need to go back home and see my parents? I feel so worried and I wish I could be back in Canada as soon as possible, but I have no money with me, I can’t afford a ticket to go back to Canada. I just feel so tense and was stuffed with fear. Then, I told myself, don’t worry, take it easy, it’s just a dream, just a dream, you will be in Canada as soon as you wake up. But, the dream seems so virtual, I can feel the sound, the rhythm, the color, the atmosphere of a real China. In the dream, I told myself it was just a dream, don’t be so worried about it, and I forced myself to wake up. It was really difficult to force yourself waking up during your dream.

At last, I did it, feel so released while opening my eyes and found myself lying on the bed in my room in Canada.