It happened on the New Year Eve’s party at my friend’s house where I was the only Chinese among more than 10 Canadians. Everything went on very well in the party, except for two embarrassing things — my exaggerate scared reaction of dogs, and a guy’s comments on Chinese government.

At last, I let the dog Cici lay on me feet and touched it. I would never do it before, because of my fright to dogs. That night, for the first time, a dog and I became good friends. However, the guy’s barking is still annoying me till now. Well, I do think he is a nice guy, and I know he just want to say something about the Chinese government for fun, and use the phrases such as Communist Country, Religions or Child Labour to indicate that he is acknowledged instead of meaning to offend me.

Usually, I would be a person telling my Canadian friends about how shitty the Chinese Government is, how I hate the Chinese Communist Party with a very natural tone, and I feel glad to tell my friends these things about China. This time, however, is different, as the only Chinese girl among 10 Canadians, I do feel embarrassed and annoyed by the guy’s talk.

I did feel surprised about my reaction and feeling to this issue. Why I do hate Chinese Government and I wouldn’t feel bad if I heard any bad news about China on TV, but I do hate some Canadian guy’s negative comment about China.

I really want to tell that guy, it is not my choice to be born in China, and charged by the Chinese Communist Party, everyone in the world want Democracy and Freedom and meanwhile we are trying to change the situation. But your talk wouldn’t let me feel you don’t like China, it would just make me think that you hate me so much.

It is just like you won’t tell an overweighted person anything like you looks huge or it is the time for you to get out of your big ass and loose some weight unless you are a doctor, so, it is okay for you to discuss about Democracy and Communism with a Chinese girl seriously, but don’t talk about it in a joking tone, it won’t make you look fun nor humorous.

At last, the guy’s Comment on Chinese Government end up with my “What did you say?” Actually, it was just a question sentence, because it is  literally true that I didn’t hear what he said clearly. I looked at the guy, and the guy avoid my eyesight with a shame.